Hey guys sorry about ranting last night

I was really scared and sad. And honestly I have decide what to take in college and need to decided soon. I have no idea, and now I guess I'll have to take something I hate. I feel so forced to conform with society that every kid needs to go to college but for music and performing you don't need that, so that's why I'm trying to pick something practical, but I don't know what I see myself practically doing. I find Business management kind of interesting but I hate dealing with money, Psychology looks good since i understand people but theres lots of testing and stuff for that which i hate, I actually like making designs on my computer for my channel art and stuff, blogging is fun, i like makeup too. I don't know who to be!