I really think I should see a psychiatrist or anger management counselor..

Growing up there have been a lot of problems at home and out that I can't explain to friends and family when they ask me. I doNT want anyone to worry about me. Most of the time I can't control my anger and anxiety and I have been able to control it more but sometimes I feel it eats me whole. Suppressing it so much kills me everyday and I'm unhappy with it. I don't know what to do. I've only been to a psychiatrist once when I was younger and there were guidance counselors but they don't help much. And maybe I'm so used to crying by myself that I just feel weak if I cry in front of other people. When you cry in front of others, it's like showing everything you weren't able to let them see. You don't know if they'll accept you even knowing the bad side. But I do have friends who have been by my side to hug me or say they'll be there for me and that is enough to know I'll be okay. Because a friend that knows your tears is a true one..