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Hey guys I know I shouldn't say this and it's very unprofessional of me. I'm just having a hard time right now. My mom just got home from midweek prayer angry. She was yelling at my sister then started cursing and complaining. Angrily cleaning the dishes. She always says that I don't do anything, that I'm lazy, that I act like a princess. That she shouldn't have let me take a year off of college and to get a job. That's why I started Youtube, that's why i try so hard to become a singer, because I need a way to prove her wrong, to prove myself wrong. That's why I work so hard! She doesn't know though...Right now I'm crying in my room and most of the time I want to run away like VenusAngelic did. I just...I don't know what I want to do or study. I was also going to use studying in philippines to escape but for some reason i cant do it. I'm so lost and confused..I'm sorry if you guys see this. I'll probably take it down later