A very emotional week fro me guys. Having to choose between studying here and having to pay lots of money for university and loans the rest of my life and be in the comfort of my own home OR Study in Philippines, pay less money, but be worried everyday about something bad happening bakc home while you're away, get homesick and cry a lot, and also study something i think i may like?
It's a really hard decision, since I worry and become anxious easily everyday. I just feel really drained thinking about stuff so much, that I dont want to be drained from. I hate it when I think so much to the point I just don't feel good. Man... now I really want Bernie Sanders to win just for the Free Education. I really don't want my mom to waste money for me to go to college here and keep switiching if i hate the course. If I go and study in Philippines, I'm literally sacrificing myself if I leave for Philippines. Leaving family and friends behind is a hard thing to do. I'm actually glad I haven't told everyone where I'm going cause honestly if I decide to go and I tell everyone. They wil all question me, and I absolutely hate it when people question me about things that make me feel miserable. I could break down and cry if people constantly question me on something i dont feel good talking about. I'm good at holding it in especially in front of people, but it's hard. Most of all I absolutely hate crying in front of people...
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